We live in a world where people want to be anyone but themselves. Constantly putting themselves down, copying others, and not being true to who they really are. It makes me sad when I see a woman desperately trying to change who she is in order to fit into what society thinks is “beautiful.” I get it. It’s hard. We want to be accepted. And it doesn’t help that we are bombarded with messages that tell us what we should look like and how we should dress. Believe me, I work really hard to not fall into the trap myself. But, I’m only human. Sometimes, I need to remind myself to just be me.
What can I say about fear and self-doubt that we don’t know already? Yes, it sucks and it’s totally normal to feel both. Come on…we wouldn’t be considered human if we didn’t. And it never fails that these two always seem to pop up when there’s an opportunity for me to try something I’ve never done before.
I love this photo that my friend Reah took of me on a rooftop in New York City. It definitely wasn’t a planned pose. I just remember thinking how cold it was, but also how happy I was to be in one of my favorite cities. I’ve realized I made that happen. I’m responsible for that moment. And ever since learning of this year’s theme of International Women’s Day, #MakeItHappen, I couldn’t help but reflect on this photo and the consequences that lead me here.
Do people really make New Year’s resolutions anymore? I’m sitting here, writing up my first post of 2015 and that’s what’s on my mind. I can’t help but think that a lot of people still do, but the real question should be if any of these people follow through with them or not. I didn’t really make any resolutions or even one of those fancy vision boards. In fact, I started off the new year at my own pace.
It’s such an amazing feeling to be passionate about something in life, especially when it makes you happy. Unfortunately, there’s a chance you will come across people who will try to rattle your happy little cage, take away your blissfulness, and make you feel like you’re not good enough-whether it’s on purpose or not.
Blame it on the seasons…hormones…or just boredom. I’m hoping to make a few small changes around here. Nothing too drastic. I wouldn’t want to run you off or anything. I guess you can say I’m evolving in this crazy world of blogging. You may have already noticed that if you’ve been around since the beginning of Curves and Chaos.